Just got back from my trip down south…. way south… as in Mindanao south. Since we go there practically every year, it’s really more like going back home to relax and unwind. One of the good things about the trip was enjoying the sunny weather as opposed to the storms that raged Luzon. Thank God we arrived back here under sunny skies and intense heat. Oh Philippine weather, why must you wreak havoc into our summer lives?

I’m glad to be home though. I’m currently catching up on more than a week’s worth of missed episodes. All throughout my marathons, I kept thinking about law school and the next years ahead. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again that I have reconciled with devoting the 5 years in the pursuit of this dream. Or have I really? BOOO.

I can’t believe that all of a sudden there’s this creeping sense of some unsettling indescribable feeling that bothers me. Go figure. That somehow I fear that I won’t have time for things that I’ve always dreamed of doing before I ‘settle.’ Some kind of bucket list that I’ve always held on to back when I was a wide-eyed teenager thriving for adventure and hungry for big, ambitious, elaborate dreams… Time for traveling, adventures, discoveries – taking the world by storm with people you love! But finally coming on to my early twenties and faced with all sorts of crisis to face and conquer for the rest of my life, the reality sinks in and sometimes the luxuries of life remain ONLY to be momentary dreams.

Maybe I’m just starting to feel quite insecure and envious after hearing and reading about the plans of some people I know as they take a year off to travel, pursue a hidden passion, brave new worlds on their own. Maybe because the next 5 years will limit me somehow. The road ahead of me may not exactly fuel in some wild, impulsive, spontaneous adventure. Instead, I will come into my own bubble. And everything else may have to wait. The million and one things that I’ve always wanted to do may not be there for me in the near future, but it’ll come for me at my own time.

So I’m telling myself at this point to just let go of this unsettling feeling. Nakakastress din eh. Come to think of it, I have my whole life ahead of me. Law school is only part of it, but it is still part of MY dream. From what I know and hear, it will be an adventure of its own. It’s braving a whole new world that may very much be worth it.

Now let’s do this week’s Friday Five:

1. What’s your favorite card game?
Pusoy Dos. I’m good at it. haha.
2. What’s your favorite roll-the-dice-and-move game?
I haven’t really played board games in a long time, but I remember when I was a kid that I used to kick butt in Casino (the board game). It was so much fun too!
3. What’s your favorite playground game?
Marco Polo! It’s a tweaked and a lot more fun version of hide-and-go-seek. My childhood friends and I live for this game during our younger years!
4. What’s your favorite party game?
When alcohol’s involved? hahaha!

5. What’s your favorite computer game?
I really don’t play computer games. As in I’m really, really bored. Okay na ako sa Snood, Feeding Frenzy, Text Twist and Bejeweled.