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I spend a lot of my days lately thinking about law school, my other plans in between, after or who knows when. It’s quite exhausting emotionally because reality does hit hard and I can’t help but start worrying about things I know I should stop worrying about. Good thing I’m not going through it alone. There is indeed joy in sharing it with my closest friends under light-hearted and scrumptious circumstances. haha! Thank you Facebook for making it easier for us to plan our sporadic get-togethers!
Here’s this week’s Friday 5:
Unsettling
Just got back from my trip down south…. way south… as in Mindanao south. Since we go there practically every year, it’s really more like going back home to relax and unwind. One of the good things about the trip was enjoying the sunny weather as opposed to the storms that raged Luzon. Thank God we arrived back here under sunny skies and intense heat. Oh Philippine weather, why must you wreak havoc into our summer lives?
I’m glad to be home though. I’m currently catching up on more than a week’s worth of missed episodes. All throughout my marathons, I kept thinking about law school and the next years ahead. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again that I have reconciled with devoting the 5 years in the pursuit of this dream. Or have I really? BOOO.
I can’t believe that all of a sudden there’s this creeping sense of some unsettling indescribable feeling that bothers me. Go figure. That somehow I fear that I won’t have time for things that I’ve always dreamed of doing before I ‘settle.’ Some kind of bucket list that I’ve always held on to back when I was a wide-eyed teenager thriving for adventure and hungry for big, ambitious, elaborate dreams… Time for traveling, adventures, discoveries – taking the world by storm with people you love! But finally coming on to my early twenties and faced with all sorts of crisis to face and conquer for the rest of my life, the reality sinks in and sometimes the luxuries of life remain ONLY to be momentary dreams.
Maybe I’m just starting to feel quite insecure and envious after hearing and reading about the plans of some people I know as they take a year off to travel, pursue a hidden passion, brave new worlds on their own. Maybe because the next 5 years will limit me somehow. The road ahead of me may not exactly fuel in some wild, impulsive, spontaneous...
To be free from boredom, I aim to be stimulated intellectually
The thunderstorms came out as a surprise last night. Our poor Chow is scared to bits, so I’m asking my mom to buy him a doggie bed to be placed in our terrace for him. But the sudden strong downpour was refreshing, especially after the unbearable heat that seems to damage my mood.
It’s quite gloomy now and I’m not sure if it’s making me happy. The past few days have been boring. I swear I can’t be idle. It bugs me to no end. I think my body has been wired to be busy and active, even if I never lose weight from it. I miss my jam-packed schedule and the seemingly endless projects and deadlines. God, I miss studying and extra-curricular life. (Just wait till you get to law school Pearl. You will probably eat your words out!)
My nerdy new discovery (thanks to my dear blockmate, Margie) is AcademicEarth.org, and it is brilliant! Open and FREE education from Ivy Leagues for the entire world! It is beyond fascinating and it makes me wish I had a consistent good broadband connection. Unfortunately, it gets kind of screwed up sometime in the afternoon. So now, I am spending any idle time listening to different lectures.
Currently, I am halfway through Yale’s Political Science course on Game Theory and Benjamin Polak is just cool. We’ve studied Game Theory, Prisoner’s Dilemma and Rational-Choice for my Polsci courses, which makes it even more interesting because I have background on it. Benjamin Polak just keeps me interested. I would just love to be in that class. There are more lectures on the course and I will find time to watch them all. At least one lecture a day.
I say this – ONE DAY I WILL STUDY IN AN IVY LEAGUE SCHOOL. ONE DAY.
To when that will be is a mystery. Law school still lies ahead and I am quite interested with how...
On graduating and the weeks after
Happy Easter!
I feel like I should be compelled to write everything I haven’t had the chance to write about. I’ve been meaning to make several detailed posts since those pre-Graduation days, but just didn’t have the time or by some reason whatsoever. But the past few weeks have been so much fun that blogging here is simply a way for me to look back and relish all those moments once again. This blog has documented practically my entire college life that it is a shame to put a halt to something that I’ve always considered as a personal artistic outlet. Now that this will cross-post from my official weblog to Facebook, I can actually tag people. Also, this post will be photo-heavy.
March 28: I really felt so emotional throughout our graduation ceremonies. It was the overwhelming feeling of that sense of finality, nostalgia, gratitude, passion, pride and love that seemed to take hold of me as I marched, got my medal, listened, observed, reflected and hugged a whole lot of people at the end. It’s great to have ended my college years with people, whom I have endured a lot of life-defining moments with – my block and coursemates. It was so funny because as usual, we were probably the loudest there. My Ateneo education and formation have given me so much, and I know that I’ve worked hard to graduate with honors. Yet it still feels surreal to think that it really has ended. There is no doubt that I will miss it. Photos above: (top) The ladies of Block I. Semi-complete. (middle) An almost complete photo with my block! (bottom) The Political Science Honor Graduates.
Right after graduation, I, together with my CSA CBCD High School friends (mostly Ateneo ones) who have also graduated flew to Boracay for a much needed getaway. It wasn’t much of a surprise that we were greeted by a whole lot of...
Approaching the End of a Summer-less Summer
The usual buzz and hype brought about by the start of school is nowhere to be found, and has been replaced by the immediate scheduling of all my other work. Amazing how I seemed to express that so loosely. It seems as if I have to juggle rehearsals, Aegis work, COA meetings and the occasional PolSci concerns everyday recently. Even before rehearsals started, I was already occupied with Congress work and really late COA meetings afterwards.
That generally sums up most of my summer. And if not for the first 3 weeks of Singapore, Formsem and Camiguin, I wouldn’t even have a taste of that sweet indulgence I clearly deserved after the hell that is Junior year, second sem.
I wouldn’t want to think that it wasn’t fun at all. The stress, pressure and exhaustion are prices to pay for one of the more fulfilling, productive and inspiring moments of my entire college life. Since day 1, it has been a continuous learning experience. Besides, I just simply love what I do.
Come this school year, my 15 units will be a constant priority. I have my goals and I will do what I can to live up to my personal expectations. I don’t regret forgoing my minor and just sticking with my original curriculum of 15 units. I like my light schedule. As for the academic workload, I have yet to find out. Safe to say, I’m already excited. I mean I’ve been so mentally, emotionally and physically worked out the entire summer that I’ll just take the 15 units as a POSITIVE additional baggage. I know it’s cliche but it really is just a matter of strategic prioritizing and time management. Besides, I like school. haha.
My legs hurt from choreography rehearsals yesterday. But our choreographer, Mian is doing a great job. The choreography is just so cute. It’s truly going to be a challenge doing our choreography with our harmonies. But...
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