Welcoming my last undergraduate semester
For the first few days of a new semester, I would normally be describing in detail a few first impressions of my professors or start talking about the new semester ahead. I didn’t realize I would be caught up with all my work for COA and our cluster’s big project for the Ateneo Sesquicentennial year. Not to mention the pressure of finishing the entire yearbook this December. Other things to be added to my long list of assignments are my Law school applications. It can get crazy, especially when you start hitting those frustrating bumps that make you feel quite powerless. Fortunately (and I really don’t know how I do it), even if the panic sinks in, I still end up with enough time for myself.
At this point in my life, I cannot lose sight on a lot of things. And as I go on living the last few months of my undergraduate year, I am somehow reminded by the things that I value, the things that I should value and the things I never realized I valued so much of. The ‘senior-syndrome’ may not have hit me yet, but I’m sure it will. I refuse to be caught up with things that occupy a huge chunk of my life right now without any realization whatsoever that there is no value in it. I’d like to believe that I’ve lived most of my life with enough passion for the things and the people I love. And all the while I’ve invested a part of myself in any of my interests, hobbies, talents, jobs, and even people, I’d like to think I’ve somehow have a better understanding of what I am capable of.
Having a healthy dose of confidence has yet to betray me. I never voluntary invest in things that I know I can only be half-hearted about. But approaching this sort of crossroads in my life leaves me a bit anxious. And I can’t help but be overwhelmed by...
I'm back. Dying, but back.
I’m soooo happy. Jumps up with joy! And to celebrate my return, I’ll put up a new layout during sembreak. If sembreak won’t eat me alive that is.
As for right now, I’m way too preoccupied with school work to blog, but let me just say that I am intensely beyond terrified of the week ahead. This semester has been my lightest sem ever – at least academically speaking. For the most part, I wish I had overloaded at least one more subject to keep my next sem even lighter. I would’ve probably been more academically productive. Contrary to my light scholastic endeavors, everything else proved to be a challenge though.
Of course, I’ve been procrastinating to no end lately – setting aside a lot of work to watch all the episodes I download in a day. How terrible.
The initial schedule I put up is majorly screwed, which means I could be screwed.
God help me.
The stress that is the first week
I usually try to blog about my first few days of school. I meant to write during my first day. But because I end up arriving home at 11PM everyday, pretty much all tired and worn out, I just usually just sleep.
It is a first week unlike no other. It feels like the week is just an extension of the busy summer I had, only with added academic units. I’m pretty thrilled with my academic workload. I’ve also met all my teachers already, and I’m pretty pleased with my decision to take those classes. I’ve already had two of them before, and the other three are very, very interesting. I’m really looking forward to my academic load.
The overwhelming stress and frustration stems mostly from my extra-curricular activities. June is a critical time for me, and the two positions I currently hold require a lot of work. First few days and all the work can be draining.
Rehearsals keep me on my toes. Our choreography is wonderful, but singing the harmonies while doing that is a challenge. I need to develop stamina and endurance. The lack of consistent physical activity has a negative effect on that. I almost forgot that a musical (especially a dance-heavy musical) is a great form of exercise. haha. The show is coming along, and I’m very excited about it.
It’s crazy how my senior year has truly made me turn a 180. I’ve never had this much extra work before, and juggling everything can be both exciting and fulfilling. Despite all my non-academic endeavors, I can still manage to have time for my friends and family. Hopefully, I will find time for myself soon.
This year can be something great for me. I really don’t want to screw it up.
Overwhelming non-academic pursuits
I just came from BlueREP pictorials. Yes. After two years of theatre hiatus, I finally auditioned for a BlueREP production. I’ve thought about it a lot before trying out, and even went out of my way to ask my parents for permission. I did that because if ever I do get in, I will have to devote school nights of June for rehearsals. It can be pretty tough for someone who lives in Makati like I do. Fortunately after my amazing persuading skills, they both finally agreed to it. It is my last year after all. Before I lock myself away to the world of law school, I might as well continue indulging in all the things I probably can’t do in the near future.
Hence, welcome to my busiest year ever. This is my attempt to overwhelm you guys. :)
Now that I have finished my practicum in Congress, I finally have time for rehearsals. I miss Congress already. I miss being part of that world and working with the good people in our office. I never really had any initial expectations, but I surprisingly left the place with newfound knowledge and appreciation of a lot of things that should matter. Everyday was a chance for me to learn and experience something new. It was not just about learning politics, the dynamics of power or national issues, but also learning more about myself. I shall miss the legislative life. haha.
For now, I am incredibly excited for BlueREP’s next musical, Summer of 42. I am thrilled to be part of the cast, especially since they were only to get 3 BlueREP female members in the play. I missed performing for BlueREP so much that even if our songs can be quite difficult, I am just so grateful to be back on stage – singing, dancing and acting again. I’m one-third of a close harmony singing group (much like The Andrew Sisters of the 40s) played by Charmie, Sab and I....
The Work is Worth it
It’s been crazy-busy than usual lately. The past few days since last week were both physically and emotionally challenging. I ended up feeling very feverish and even took a trip to visit the infirmary inside the House of Representatives last Wednesday. It was really terrible because the next few days after that was still pretty busy for me. I really didn’t like the fact that my body had to break down. And although I’m so much better, I still have colds.
Last Saturday, I also had the chance to finally meet up with the Aegis (Ateneo yearbook!) 2009 Executive Board for our training and initial planning, and it was just so exciting. I love being part of this. There’s just so much room for creativity that I can’t contain my excitement just thinking about it. hahaha. Of course, that also means added work to my already busy year.
I say bring it on. (Yeah, right.)
This week is even crazier (I didn’t think it was possible anymore. but it is.) with work ending at the usual 6 to be only followed by meetings and consultations till 9 in Ateneo everyday. I’ll be missing the one on Friday because my little sister will have her 16th Birthday bash.
Let’s make it clear. It’s really not that I’m complaining because I really end up fulfilled after – most especially yesterday and today. Together with my Secretary-Treasurer, I had a consultation with each of the presidents from my cluster around 1.5 hours each. And I wish I could express in detail how I feel about each consultation, but it’s 11:50PM and I’m pretty exhausted already.
I do have to say that I’m very pleased, and inspired, and excited, and moved by everything that came about during each consultation. It makes me love my job even more as the head of the Performing Arts Cluster. Despite the tedious work COA is making us do, it’s all very worth it. I feel like we have already...
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