I think the last time I revamped this website was last January. Ten months after, I present the new layout. My coding and designing skills seemed to dwindle since it took me a bit longer to finish this. Fortunately, I do like the finished product.

As I was looking through my blog archives, I realized that I barely had any entries written during the first sem. This makes me quite sad because I’ve always thought that this blog has done a great job of encapsulating the heights of my emotions throughout college. It’s quite a joy reading through past entries and feel the nostalgia creep up. It is quite unfortunate because to say that my first sem is eventful is an understatement. I anticipated a crazy senior year and I got all that and more. But I survived it with flying colors, got myself into the Dean’s List again and achieved more than what I could personally hope for. I vow to blog more as I live through my last undergraduate semester in the Ateneo.

This sembreak is quite a busy one for me. As much as I would want to talk about each event, it is impossible to go through everything.

1. Council of Organizations of the Ateneo Evaluation Seminar

Immediately after the sem ended, the Council of Organizations of the Ateneo Central Board together with the 47 presidents/representatives of the organizations and the Office of Student Activities headed to Antipolo for 3 days of evaluation and bonding. As the Performing Arts Cluster Head, I was happy to be reunited with my presidents, bond, evaluate and plan for our next big project. It was a lot of fun, very productive and I got the chance to meet new people. Picture above is a group COA shot, while the picture below is of my cluster, PAC.

2. Council of Organizations of the Ateneo Central Board Evaluation Seminar

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Getting my highest QPI ever and maintaining my Dean’s List status is the cream cheese icing on my already tasty carrot cake. (This is me craving for Sonja’s Bunny Huggers Cupcake.) There were no expectations even. I was just glad that it was over and I have finally let go of all that was hindering me from moving happily forward. I guess this is an even greater personal victory for me that I could ever hoped for at the moment. Especially after the most emotionally trying semester. I’m really happy and proud of myself.

Some of my close friends would remember my agony over how the hurt and anger may channel into something negative that could affect my studies. The lesson to be learned here is that nothing can really stop you from doing anything unless you allow it to. Not even heartbreaking realities or rock-bottom moments. My ‘making the most out of the moment’ strategy really works! Clarity of vision and knowledge of priorities were also very, very helpful. If you feel like almost everything is going against you, just try looking at the ‘bigger picture.’ Usually, your present troubles are merely little hobbits. (Haha. Redundant ata yan.) Do not allow yourself to get sidetracked.

I really believe that one of the more wonderful things that came about after this semester is that I finally got the chance to know more about myself than ever. I’ve never liked being vulnerable, but I later learned that these moments of weakness have allowed me to recognize strength that I never realized I had later on. Do not succumb to self-pity. Stop torturing yourself for answers that you know you can always look for at the right time, given the right opportunity.

The last few posts will be there to remind me of moments like these. It’s like some kind of high that can possibly maybe rival that of falling in love. Okay, siguro hindi. But pretty damn close. This post...

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The time spent to soothe emotional wounds really did do its wonders. Attaining closure in various aspects of my life and myself is priceless. It has allowed me to set free all negativity and make room for so much positivity and optimism. The once tainted realities are given clarity. There is acceptance of truth, and somehow it has stopped burning. It doesn’t hurt anymore. I can finally proclaim myself victorious from this emotional battle. There really is something empowering about that.

Thus, the break has been good so far. Amidst postponed plans, I’m not complaining. It’s refreshing to just think of myself for a change. Shutting myself out from the world entailed no such risks or burdens to anyone. And that felt good. I am able to reconnect with my good friends, strengthen best friend bonds, celebrate promising news, cherish sibling moments, restock my wardrobe, indulge in series downtime, and look forward to good days. It’s safe to say that I’m not clouded with all these repressed feelings. I am able to revel in new possibilities and opportunities knowing what I want and what I can be capable of. And after everything, it feels as if I can handle anything.

Hearing my close friends affirm that truth, while expressing admiration and reminding how much strength I have does make me all feel warm and fuzzy inside. There have been so many times in the past wherein I am left scarred and questioning every minute. I guess I’d like to remind everyone that there really is such a thing as a rainbow after a storm, a silver lining, a chance to have that happily ever after.

I don’t want to get in and over my head, but I want to allow myself this feeling of knowing I shouldn’t be scared, paranoid, or worried.

That’s why I want to be optimistic about the next semester – the last of my junior year. With a really bad T-TH schedule and a SAT class, I...

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Lists that prove just how much of a TV-junkie I am, and some more.

• My sister and I have color-coded, computerized tabled lists that shows who will download what per day to maximize bandwidth.
• Mac has this amazing program called TV Shows that automatically downloads the right torrent file at the right time and even opens up Azureus/Transmission for me automatically as well.
• We schedule the times when we are able to watch our shows. Contrary to what this list has made me sound like, I usually am out all the time. My sister and I have agreed we shall watch together, so we have to actually ‘schedule it in.’
• I can name the US networks and time slots of all those shows. In fact, I have been recently fascinated with TV ratings and the show’s demographic, especially amongst competitive time slots, networks and shows.

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