Mondays are usually busy days composed of my weekly meetings and a whole bunch of dates/meetings to attend to, to-do-lists and a new set of agenda to occupy either the week or the month. It yields mixed emotions of stress, anxiety and excitement. But I guess these days, it’s mostly the latter. New projects can become exciting adventures, and I find that particularly uplifting. Optimism brings out the best in me, and this attitude is always a good one to have.

But I am not without my worries. There is immense pressure to finish things on time and finish it well. And it is exhausting. I cannot let myself fall down and settle. I need to feel constantly inspired and motivated. For this to hit me, I stop for awhile to remind myself why I do what I do and why I love it. When I finally have my answers, it gets easy from there. And the people I am with – always always help.

I have two months left. And it just doesn’t feel enough. But I’ll worry about that later. For now, there are only new exciting adventures ahead to share with such amazing people. I remain bright-eyed and optimistic. Even if it gets hard. Even if its challenging. Even when there will come a time when I’m going to pull my hair out eventually. And I fear that eventually is really soon, and soon is really like next week.

But I will take that jump, come back bouncing and glide through all these so-called work. I will think of all this work, ONLY as POSSIBILITIES, holding out infinite chances for me to learn, grow and give back.

The next few months will be awesome.

I’m soooo happy. Jumps up with joy! And to celebrate my return, I’ll put up a new layout during sembreak. If sembreak won’t eat me alive that is.

As for right now, I’m way too preoccupied with school work to blog, but let me just say that I am intensely beyond terrified of the week ahead. This semester has been my lightest sem ever – at least academically speaking. For the most part, I wish I had overloaded at least one more subject to keep my next sem even lighter. I would’ve probably been more academically productive. Contrary to my light scholastic endeavors, everything else proved to be a challenge though.

Of course, I’ve been procrastinating to no end lately – setting aside a lot of work to watch all the episodes I download in a day. How terrible.

The initial schedule I put up is majorly screwed, which means I could be screwed.

God help me.

I usually try to blog about my first few days of school. I meant to write during my first day. But because I end up arriving home at 11PM everyday, pretty much all tired and worn out, I just usually just sleep.

It is a first week unlike no other. It feels like the week is just an extension of the busy summer I had, only with added academic units. I’m pretty thrilled with my academic workload. I’ve also met all my teachers already, and I’m pretty pleased with my decision to take those classes. I’ve already had two of them before, and the other three are very, very interesting. I’m really looking forward to my academic load.

The overwhelming stress and frustration stems mostly from my extra-curricular activities. June is a critical time for me, and the two positions I currently hold require a lot of work. First few days and all the work can be draining.

Rehearsals keep me on my toes. Our choreography is wonderful, but singing the harmonies while doing that is a challenge. I need to develop stamina and endurance. The lack of consistent physical activity has a negative effect on that. I almost forgot that a musical (especially a dance-heavy musical) is a great form of exercise. haha. The show is coming along, and I’m very excited about it.

It’s crazy how my senior year has truly made me turn a 180. I’ve never had this much extra work before, and juggling everything can be both exciting and fulfilling. Despite all my non-academic endeavors, I can still manage to have time for my friends and family. Hopefully, I will find time for myself soon.

This year can be something great for me. I really don’t want to screw it up.

My three-day formation seminar hosted by OSA with those who comprise COA or the Council of Organizations of the Ateneo was yet again another very high point of my most eventful summer yet. I honestly don’t know how to begin, seeing as the attempt to look back at what has transpired during those three days is all too overwhelming. And the fact that I’m leaving for Camiguin in around 4 hours is also not helping. I mean I’m quite exhausted from the very eventful formsem, as well as the 2am sleeping time for the previous 2 nights. But anyway, I really just want to blog about my experience. Just because it was so powerful and inspiring for me personally that it just needs to be shared out in the open. I’ll just try to put it down in list form to make it easier for me to share a few thoughts about the wonderful experience I had with COA.

• Everything about the formsem was just inspiring. I didn’t think it was possible to feel so much inspiration building up, one activity after another. But it happened. And it was so wonderful. There were so many points wherein I found myself caught up with the words, stories, the overflowing passion of the speakers that I tried so hard to hold back tears. Simply put, I was completely overwhelmed. The things I was learning, discovering and sharing were all so powerful, especially when I am reminded of my role as part of COA.
• Knowing that I am surrounded by an outstanding group of leaders comprising of the COA Central Board, Sanggu President and the Presidents of the 47 accredited organizations of the Ateneo fills me with so much honor and awe. More importantly, I was given the chance to get to know all of them in different ways. We all underwent several activities, sessions and workshops. And I have to say that everyone just blew me away with...

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I officially ended my third-year life yesterday. And after such a hell/heart-breaking FINALS week, I am overflowing with relief. And joy. And peace. There were so many moments since “holy week” started that I felt like breaking down. It was just all so emotionally and mentally exhausting. And the fact that I barely get any shut eye every day didn’t help.

A 3.5 for my Dacanay orals made it all so worth it though. :)

But I’m just glad it’s all over, and I can finally look forward to my most eventful Summer yet. I have tons of activities lined up for me and a Polsci Practicum to top all that!

I’ll try making a new layout before I leave for Singapore this Monday! :)