Why did I choose today to suddenly make an attempt to randomly “scribble” something down just to keep this blog semi-alive? I have a class at 11am until 5pm. It’s gonna be an intense day and I feel like I am not even half ready to get through it. Not to mention my StatCon report today.

I can’t even think straight while writing this down because I know I should really go and get dressed up now.

All I can say is that these are troubling times for me. I am struggling not to break down and continue fighting every day. I try to remain optimistic even if it feels so impossible.

I need some sort of cathartic outlet. Hopefully, this blog will be updated once again. And to those who are sick of my law-school babble, I am truly sorry. It’s difficult to burst out of this bubble, and I fear that I will fail if I do.

I. SHOULD. REALLY. GO.

ADDENDUM: On a brighter note, I do have a reason to celebrate. Happy Anniversary to meeeee! :)

I used to do my Friday Fives religiously back when I was young and was just starting to blog. It was always fun answering questions. And because this might actually help me slowly cure my “less than 5 entries per month” sickness.

1. What’s the most annoying sound in the world? Nails on a chalkboard. Or annoying people talking around.
2. Which of other people’s mannerisms do you find very annoying? I can’t think of any particular mannerisms as of now, but my ultimate annoying pet peeve is when someone touches/borrows/uses/gets my stuff without my knowledge or permission. I really go crazy. I have huge control/territorial issues.
3. What do you do that really annoys others? I’m not sure. Probably when I talk too much or too loudly when I get excited. Especially in a nice restaurant or in the movies. I do that only when I’m with my friends or sisters though. I tend to make side-comments sometimes.
4. In what way has your own behavior recently caused you annoyance? When I get too needy or attached when I tell myself not to. Or when I’m too indecisive. Lately, those things annoy me big time.
5. Who’s the most annoying person you know? As if I’m going to say it here.

Wow. Ang bad vibes naman ng selection of questions this week. Hope everyone enjoys the weekend ahead.

I just came from BlueREP pictorials. Yes. After two years of theatre hiatus, I finally auditioned for a BlueREP production. I’ve thought about it a lot before trying out, and even went out of my way to ask my parents for permission. I did that because if ever I do get in, I will have to devote school nights of June for rehearsals. It can be pretty tough for someone who lives in Makati like I do. Fortunately after my amazing persuading skills, they both finally agreed to it. It is my last year after all. Before I lock myself away to the world of law school, I might as well continue indulging in all the things I probably can’t do in the near future.

Hence, welcome to my busiest year ever. This is my attempt to overwhelm you guys. :)

Now that I have finished my practicum in Congress, I finally have time for rehearsals. I miss Congress already. I miss being part of that world and working with the good people in our office. I never really had any initial expectations, but I surprisingly left the place with newfound knowledge and appreciation of a lot of things that should matter. Everyday was a chance for me to learn and experience something new. It was not just about learning politics, the dynamics of power or national issues, but also learning more about myself. I shall miss the legislative life. haha.

For now, I am incredibly excited for BlueREP’s next musical, Summer of 42. I am thrilled to be part of the cast, especially since they were only to get 3 BlueREP female members in the play. I missed performing for BlueREP so much that even if our songs can be quite difficult, I am just so grateful to be back on stage – singing, dancing and acting again. I’m one-third of a close harmony singing group (much like The Andrew Sisters of the 40s) played by Charmie, Sab and I....

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It’s been crazy-busy than usual lately. The past few days since last week were both physically and emotionally challenging. I ended up feeling very feverish and even took a trip to visit the infirmary inside the House of Representatives last Wednesday. It was really terrible because the next few days after that was still pretty busy for me. I really didn’t like the fact that my body had to break down. And although I’m so much better, I still have colds.

Last Saturday, I also had the chance to finally meet up with the Aegis (Ateneo yearbook!) 2009 Executive Board for our training and initial planning, and it was just so exciting. I love being part of this. There’s just so much room for creativity that I can’t contain my excitement just thinking about it. hahaha. Of course, that also means added work to my already busy year.

I say bring it on. (Yeah, right.)

This week is even crazier (I didn’t think it was possible anymore. but it is.) with work ending at the usual 6 to be only followed by meetings and consultations till 9 in Ateneo everyday. I’ll be missing the one on Friday because my little sister will have her 16th Birthday bash.

Let’s make it clear. It’s really not that I’m complaining because I really end up fulfilled after – most especially yesterday and today. Together with my Secretary-Treasurer, I had a consultation with each of the presidents from my cluster around 1.5 hours each. And I wish I could express in detail how I feel about each consultation, but it’s 11:50PM and I’m pretty exhausted already.

I do have to say that I’m very pleased, and inspired, and excited, and moved by everything that came about during each consultation. It makes me love my job even more as the head of the Performing Arts Cluster. Despite the tedious work COA is making us do, it’s all very worth it. I feel like we have already...

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The four-day “break” that started last Thursday was the beginning of an all-too-unbearable state of despair and frustration over PolSci requirements. And amidst the frying of the brain cells are the added emotional highs and lows by some unforeseen events (school … erm.. course related) that I will not bother divulging over here.

It was insane. I felt like a prisoner in my own room, shifting from reading at least 6 sources and then ending up glued in front of my computer the rest of the night. I had at least two seemingly impossible-to-finish final papers. I say that because I just basically started during that week, so it was definitely falling under the “crammed” category. For the entire “holy week,” I experienced caffeine-induced nights that allowed me to sleep at around 3-4am, while waking up at 7 to continue typing my papers away. I have forgone going out with my family, and my only form of social interaction was through YM. Somehow, there was comfort in numbers. My co-Polsci coursemates share my pain and we try to find ways to “help” each other out. This is done mostly through emotional means. hahahaha. And after a lot of crazy, crazy events that transpired in line with the Polsci madness we are all experiencing, I really have learned to love my coursemates.

I still can’t believe I did all those. And now I’m sick with cough and colds, fighting my way through this because of the pending finals. I’m glad that I was able to sleep for a long time last night. I needed to rest because I felt as if my body is going to give up any time soon, and there’s no way I’m going to let that happen. I still have History166 later, Philo orals tomorrow and partnering up with Ray for our Theo orals on Thursday. Oooh! And a take-home exam due Thursday too! Somehow, I have absolutely no idea when I’d be able to start that.

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