I can’t believe that the next weekend is already the start of September! A few more crazy hellish months and I’m off to sembreak haven!

It’s amazing how adjusted I am being in my junior year now. Prior to stepping into Ateneo and experiencing being in the midst of the infamous hell week, you wouldn’t see me pulling all-nighters, cramming papers or studying till the wee hours of the morning. Not that I was a slacker (hardly). I just couldn’t find myself doing all those. Nothing was worth foregoing my beauty sleep.

Slowly, after terror profs, endless groupworks and unthinkable research/paper work, I’ve adjusted my body clock and have learned to make full use of God’s 24 hours a day. Tama ata ang mga magulang ko, abusado talaga ang mga katawan ng kabataan ngayon. Of course, I still don’t think it gets any easier. I may be used to the system, but the workload still gets even more challenging every time. Pagod na ako magreklamo. I do what I can, and I try to do it well. Unfortunately, I tend to be a perfectionist at times (especially with my papers!) and it can get frustrating. Slow and steady… that’s my paper mantra! Kahit na umaabot ng ilang araw, sige lang.

Of course, I couldn’t let my long weekend go to waste without some kind of social life. Ha. Reunions with my closest High School best friends are treasured moments. Last Saturday was the despidida of one of my closest friends, Sarah. She’s leaving for Korea the following day for Ateneo’s JTA Program, and won’t be coming back here till the last week of December. Together with my other best friends: Jaz, Audrey and Dan, we went to the mall, watched a movie, and then proceeded to Sarah’s house for a dinner party. (Hahahaha. Mukha akong baliw sa ibang picture.)

On the side: I just have to say that Hairspray was awesome! It...

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Birthday month. Yay. Finally. The emotional baggage I’ve carried out the past month has been way too difficult for words. Everyday suddenly becomes a struggle. One day allows me to feel the intensity of a whole spectrum of emotions. I find myself just beyond exhausted.

I’ve been trying so hard to be in control, but I realized that once again, as the ‘feeling’ person that I am, I have allowed things to go beyond my control and affect me intensely. Nabubulabog talaga ako. There were so many days when ‘looking at the bright side’ means nothing. This is for the sole reason that I couldn’t find anything positive at all. Yaaak. Ang drama. Emo to the nth level. But I’ve been way to vulnerable lately that everything just triggers an emotional breakdown of sorts.

And this also includes my freakin acads. Kadalasan, sinisigurado ko na hindi ito maapektuhan. Pero ang hirap. Nagkakataon na laging may test o exam sa susunod na araw. Haaay. Nakakaiyak. The reality that I screwed up an important paper truly took its toll.

Fortunately, the start of this month promised a renewed outlook, a fresh perspective and a yearning for only the positive. This is me trying hard to get past all my relapses and emotional blows. Last Friday, I had my routine guidance interview. Even if I didn’t expect myself to start opening up, I eventually did. And it felt good. Hearing someone give me advice from that point of view is refreshing. The time I spent there was both uplifting and inspiring. To find a pace for myself amidst all this is still probably going to be a challenge and struggle for me, but at least the road to get there isn’t as tainted as before. Channeling all the pent-up negative energy is going to be crucial. Haaay. Pray for me.

And because I’ve been a sentimental schmuck lately, a recent purchase of Candy (August 2007) issue was enough to make me...

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Why, oh why do I have to get a really crappy random number for picking out classes and schedules this time my Junior year?! It was insane. Call time was 1:40, and I finally ended up with the final list of classes 3 hours after – a far cry from minutes of enlistment from previous sems. I went through hell and back just to fight for a good sched. Fortunately, I was probably one of the luckiest in my block to get a decent sched with great teachers. The only perks of being one of the last few ones, and dearest Earl as the person who helped me enlist was that I ended up having closed classes for Philo and a conflicting Arcilla History class with my PolSci major. Because of that, I had to be ‘buffered.’ That meant calling up departments so that I may be considered for other classes. The best part? I got to pick my desired classes and have a good schedule at the end. Of course, I had to go back and forth, endure the long lines, and pray tirelessly to get the slots I wanted. My other blockmates are probably suffering the straight T-Th only scheds. The possibility of having long weekends does sound tempting, but I just couldn’t handle break-less, six, hour and a half long classes. I will lose my sanity. At the end of the day, I was just really happy that I got good teachers. Or so I hope. I’m actually looking forward to go to school now. Onwards to probably my hardest sem yet.

Before my hellish reg, I got another chance to perform a short stint for BlueRep during the OrgTalks for the incoming Freshmen of the Ateneo. It was super fun and hilarious! We did We Dance from Once In This Island, and a comedic number of the intro of Seasons of Love from Rent. Picture c/o Shari. (Haha. Try to spot me!)

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