Of leaving behind COA and ending my Senior Year
I know that this entry is already overdue, as I have officially passed my last academic requirement for my Lit class two Fridays ago. (Thank you, Ma’am Rica for my A!) Nevertheless, last week came in a flash filled with so many events that I had no time to take a breather and update. My last official day as a COA officer ended last Friday as I finally graduated from my position and celebrated the night after for the Awarding party.
I’ll keep this entry short as I may have the tendency to be quite emotional if I attempt to be all detailed about it. But there are just way too many reasons to be all sentimental, especially for someone like me who suffer from major attachment issues. I get caught up with things, and if I am truly passionate and excited about something, I revel in all its entirety. My experience as a student, leader, follower, mover, nation-builder, artist, friend, girlfriend, and neighbor through my college years can never be fully expressed exactly as how I want it to. But to put quite simply, it has been amazing. God knows it wasn’t easy. Even if people think that I made it look easy, it simply wasn’t. Goodness! If you guys read this blog in its entirety, you will get realize that I can be a total wreck. Although, I am incredibly happy that I was able to “document” my college life in this blog. At least a small part of it.
But to talk about Ateneo and what it has done for me merits an entry that I am not prepared to write just yet. Maybe sometime when I actually finally and officially march, I will. Or maybe I’d be too overwhelmed and decide to forgo it. Nevertheless, I’d like everyone to know that I have loved every bit of the learning experience and formation this institution has afforded me. And I can’t wait to go to law...
Recapturing the busy month I had
It’s hard to go back in detail how I spent the past month. It was by far the busiest month I’ve ever experienced my entire student life. Last summer came pretty close, but just because this one involved all facets of my entire self, it exceeds everything I did then by a mile. It was physically, emotionally and mentally exhausting. I had quite a few breakdowns along the way, but as soon as everything wrapped up wonderfully and successfully at the end, I had to say it was all purely worth it. I have proven a lot of things to myself, and quite proud of what I have accomplished. Here are a few snapshots from some recent celebrations. I wish I had all the pictures with me to share, but these will do. Happy Holidays everyone!
Welcoming my last undergraduate semester
For the first few days of a new semester, I would normally be describing in detail a few first impressions of my professors or start talking about the new semester ahead. I didn’t realize I would be caught up with all my work for COA and our cluster’s big project for the Ateneo Sesquicentennial year. Not to mention the pressure of finishing the entire yearbook this December. Other things to be added to my long list of assignments are my Law school applications. It can get crazy, especially when you start hitting those frustrating bumps that make you feel quite powerless. Fortunately (and I really don’t know how I do it), even if the panic sinks in, I still end up with enough time for myself.
At this point in my life, I cannot lose sight on a lot of things. And as I go on living the last few months of my undergraduate year, I am somehow reminded by the things that I value, the things that I should value and the things I never realized I valued so much of. The ‘senior-syndrome’ may not have hit me yet, but I’m sure it will. I refuse to be caught up with things that occupy a huge chunk of my life right now without any realization whatsoever that there is no value in it. I’d like to believe that I’ve lived most of my life with enough passion for the things and the people I love. And all the while I’ve invested a part of myself in any of my interests, hobbies, talents, jobs, and even people, I’d like to think I’ve somehow have a better understanding of what I am capable of.
Having a healthy dose of confidence has yet to betray me. I never voluntary invest in things that I know I can only be half-hearted about. But approaching this sort of crossroads in my life leaves me a bit anxious. And I can’t help but be overwhelmed by...
The Promised Update
I think the last time I revamped this website was last January. Ten months after, I present the new layout. My coding and designing skills seemed to dwindle since it took me a bit longer to finish this. Fortunately, I do like the finished product.
As I was looking through my blog archives, I realized that I barely had any entries written during the first sem. This makes me quite sad because I’ve always thought that this blog has done a great job of encapsulating the heights of my emotions throughout college. It’s quite a joy reading through past entries and feel the nostalgia creep up. It is quite unfortunate because to say that my first sem is eventful is an understatement. I anticipated a crazy senior year and I got all that and more. But I survived it with flying colors, got myself into the Dean’s List again and achieved more than what I could personally hope for. I vow to blog more as I live through my last undergraduate semester in the Ateneo.
This sembreak is quite a busy one for me. As much as I would want to talk about each event, it is impossible to go through everything.
1. Council of Organizations of the Ateneo Evaluation Seminar
Immediately after the sem ended, the Council of Organizations of the Ateneo Central Board together with the 47 presidents/representatives of the organizations and the Office of Student Activities headed to Antipolo for 3 days of evaluation and bonding. As the Performing Arts Cluster Head, I was happy to be reunited with my presidents, bond, evaluate and plan for our next big project. It was a lot of fun, very productive and I got the chance to meet new people. Picture above is a group COA shot, while the picture below is of my cluster, PAC.
2. Council of Organizations of the Ateneo Central Board Evaluation Seminar
Overwhelming non-academic pursuits
I just came from BlueREP pictorials. Yes. After two years of theatre hiatus, I finally auditioned for a BlueREP production. I’ve thought about it a lot before trying out, and even went out of my way to ask my parents for permission. I did that because if ever I do get in, I will have to devote school nights of June for rehearsals. It can be pretty tough for someone who lives in Makati like I do. Fortunately after my amazing persuading skills, they both finally agreed to it. It is my last year after all. Before I lock myself away to the world of law school, I might as well continue indulging in all the things I probably can’t do in the near future.
Hence, welcome to my busiest year ever. This is my attempt to overwhelm you guys. :)
Now that I have finished my practicum in Congress, I finally have time for rehearsals. I miss Congress already. I miss being part of that world and working with the good people in our office. I never really had any initial expectations, but I surprisingly left the place with newfound knowledge and appreciation of a lot of things that should matter. Everyday was a chance for me to learn and experience something new. It was not just about learning politics, the dynamics of power or national issues, but also learning more about myself. I shall miss the legislative life. haha.
For now, I am incredibly excited for BlueREP’s next musical, Summer of 42. I am thrilled to be part of the cast, especially since they were only to get 3 BlueREP female members in the play. I missed performing for BlueREP so much that even if our songs can be quite difficult, I am just so grateful to be back on stage – singing, dancing and acting again. I’m one-third of a close harmony singing group (much like The Andrew Sisters of the 40s) played by Charmie, Sab and I....
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