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Getting my highest QPI ever and maintaining my Dean’s List status is the cream cheese icing on my already tasty carrot cake. (This is me craving for Sonja’s Bunny Huggers Cupcake.) There were no expectations even. I was just glad that it was over and I have finally let go of all that was hindering me from moving happily forward. I guess this is an even greater personal victory for me that I could ever hoped for at the moment. Especially after the most emotionally trying semester. I’m really happy and proud of myself.

Some of my close friends...

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The time spent to soothe emotional wounds really did do its wonders. Attaining closure in various aspects of my life and myself is priceless. It has allowed me to set free all negativity and make room for so much positivity and optimism. The once tainted realities are given clarity. There is acceptance of truth, and somehow it has stopped burning. It doesn’t hurt anymore. I can finally proclaim myself victorious from this emotional battle. There really is something empowering about that.

Thus, the break has been good so far. Amidst postponed plans, I’m not complaining. It’s refreshing to just think...

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I just got home from watching Stardust with my friends, Jam and Kent. FYI: It was a really, really good and entertaining movie. Neil Gaiman never fails.

I’m pretty much in total sembreak mode despite a major group research paper to be submitted this Friday. I guess I’ll be devoting my entire day tomorrow for that. Also, my new chocolate-detox diet is ongoing and I haven’t failed yet! It’s almost a week since I started depriving myself of my ultimate sweet weakness. Good job me.

It’s pretty obvious how much of a series-freak I am. Apart from all the shows...

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Just because there’s free internet here at Starbucks, Corinthian, I’m going to try updating this thing. Starbucks is not exactly my ideal place to study, but that’s probably because I never really found a ‘good’ branch that’s conducive for studying. It’s all a matter of preference, and this one is surprisingly not bad. It’s not far for Ateneo, but not exactly close enough for me to bump and deal with people I actually know. And the place is pretty big, and plays just the right kind of music – easy-listening, motown/jazz and soul. I’m stuck here because I’m still not...

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This is probably my hardest sem yet. And I mean that in different levels – testing me here and there every freakin day. It’s still baffling how I have mustered that much strength to bring me to this point – October 7, my sister’s birthday (no connection whatsoever) with only 5 more days till sembreak freedom. I’ve been wishing for some sort of time-off and recluse ever since this sem started. Now that it’s almost here, I can’t wait. Of course, just before that, hell arrives.

Last week was the hell week of all hell weeks in my entire Ateneo life....

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Uhhuh. I am a drama queen like that.

I can’t even attempt to start making cohesive statements. My thoughts are scattered far and wide, while my mind feels like mush. I am struggling emotionally, physically and mentally. Perhaps one more than the other. But the point is I’m drained, tired, exhausted. This will be random wachamacaulits because all I could think of is sleeping.

I’m missing out on a big BlueRep party and I have to wake up at 5:30 tomorrow for a dentist appointment at 7, a Philosophy JeEP integration seminar at 8:30, and the rest of my killer group...

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Last Monday, junior Political Science students had an assembly regarding the special MA program Ateneo has for us to take if we want to. It is a great program anchored into our current undergraduate program, which basically allows us just one year to take graduate courses and eventually earn an MA degree after. Yes. One freakin year ONLY. It is seriously TEMPTING.

I mean, what’s one year?

Damn law school.

The buzz of this MA program around us PolSci students brought about questions on the what do we really want to do after polsci. Are we all set...

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I’ve been in an emotional rut for the past few days, and it doesn’t help that there are just so many school-related things I need to worry about. Every now and then, I’ve been trying to get a hold of myself, trying to dismiss anything that will let me fall into a relapse. I guess the stress helps me focus on the things that should matter for the time being. I have to make the most out of everything.

Saturdays are meant to be days of indulgence for myself. My tito happens to be one of the regional directors under...

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My apologies for the few days worth of hiatus and server problems. The important thing is this blog is back up. I also realized I haven’t really backed-up all my files here in this site. And the temporary shut down caused me much alarm. I really want to keep all my archives! That’s why if ever something happens to my host domain, I can move with all my files still with me.

August came and went by super fast that September started without much effect. It only becomes a reminder that the clock is ticking and I’m up against crazy...

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I can’t believe that the next weekend is already the start of September! A few more crazy hellish months and I’m off to sembreak haven!

It’s amazing how adjusted I am being in my junior year now. Prior to stepping into Ateneo and experiencing being in the midst of the infamous hell week, you wouldn’t see me pulling all-nighters, cramming papers or studying till the wee hours of the morning. Not that I was a slacker (hardly). I just couldn’t find myself doing all those. Nothing was worth foregoing my beauty sleep.

Slowly, after terror profs, endless groupworks and unthinkable research/paper...

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I just got home from a long, intense, yet surprisingly fruitful shoot for our History165 video project. It was supposed to start at 1:30pm, but we only had the chance to finally shoot 2 and a half hours later. Blame the holiday for the lack of admin people. We had to go through so much red tape. Freakin SOPs. Thankfully, a few contacts, name-drops and kickass, no-nonsense phone calls from mom saved the day.

Our adventure started from Luneta Grandstand, Luneta Park, Intramuros, Fort Santiago and ended back at Intramuros’ Barbara’s Restaurant. For most part, I was donning a shimmery...

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After days of some serious downpour, the weather has finally calmed. And I know it’s pretty selfish to say that I wish it was still raining, especially with all the serious damage it can do, but I can’t help but long for more days of rest. Today, I woke up a little less enthusiastic to be greeted by a much brighter sky. Luckily, I was able to sleep for a little bit more than eight hours. That felt good.

Once again, the week came by way too swiftly. And because I have so many things to prepare and accomplish, I hardly...

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Birthday month. Yay. Finally. The emotional baggage I’ve carried out the past month has been way too difficult for words. Everyday suddenly becomes a struggle. One day allows me to feel the intensity of a whole spectrum of emotions. I find myself just beyond exhausted.

I’ve been trying so hard to be in control, but I realized that once again, as the ‘feeling’ person that I am, I have allowed things to go beyond my control and affect me intensely. Nabubulabog talaga ako. There were so many days when ‘looking at the bright side’ means nothing. This is for the...

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I’ve never experienced heightened emotions tugging me endlessly in various directions consecutively the way I’ve been having them recently. Well, at least not since I was going through the worst ordeal back in high school. Of course, I was a completely different person then. More impulsive, less mature. But I still never expected this.

Siguro tama na. Isasarado ko na muna hanggang sa makita ko na kara pat-dapat pa itong balikan.

It’s really exhausting, and as much as I want to make things turn out okay. Circumstances prove to make me feel otherwise. I don’t want to be angry. I really don’t....

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Good morning, world. It’s 7:40am and I’m here in the Ateneo typing the early wee hours away inside the RSF. Blame it on my two early-bird sisters, who made me wake up at 5:30 for a 9:30am class. So, what best way to waste time than contemplative blogging 101.

First of all, let me thank all those wonderful people who commented at my previous emo-ridden entry. To those who txted and expressed their concern, let me just say that all of you guys really helped lift my spirits up. I would want to hug y’all. haha. It’s amazing how you...

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I’m not sure exactly how this entry is going to be like. But I’ll try to keep all the angst minimal. This is one of those moments when I wish to divulge everything, but can’t. I will try, and hopefully won’t end up regretting this. More importantly, I’m going to try and muster enough strength to update just because I don’t know if I have that in me at this moment. Be gentle with me.

I wish I could say that the past few weeks since school started has left me euphoric and excited. Unfortunately, it has turned out to be...

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The first few days of school didn’t really feel like the usual first few days. Except maybe during photocopying moments, wherein every freakin photocopying machine in the Ateneo is either filled with long lines or crammed with a bulk of photocopying jobs. And as a PolSci major, readings make up most of my subjects. Our readings lists are insanely long, and require occasional trips to various photocopying machines. I have befriended several ‘xerox ladies and gentlemen’ with the hopes that it will come to my advantage eventually.

My MWF Histo and Philo classes are still very much manageable and...

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Having finished a class in Faura that I was solely in (no blockmates whatsoever I mean), I was walking alone towards MVP (the building of all organizations in the Ateneo), when a group of college freshmen (which I assumed were blockmates) were talking and giggling wildly beside me. That’s when the reality of being a college junior finally hit me! Kanya kanya na. Not that I minded being alone, nor that I wasn’t with any of my blockmates for that class. In fact, I actually enjoyed it. New faces every class. New things to learn from them. The class...

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