I know I have been very negligent with this blog. Living through The Sem, while experiencing the most trying courses and teachers takes its toll, and blogging doesn’t seem to be a priority. I’d like to change that of course. Someday. haha.

I’m killing time before I go to my next class here at the Ateneo RSF. I also just finished my second Theo131 orals with Fr. Dacanay an hour ago. And the extreme relief after undergoing such life-changing event (haha) is one of a kind. I’m happy to say that I got the thesis statement I second wanted, and felt quite confident about it. Let’s see if I am able to keep my grade from my first orals, or maybe even get a higher one this time around.

I never really liked the second semester. Scholastically, my grades drop down a notch. Personally, I find myself looking forward to the nearing summer vacation. It’s still very trying, and this sem is no exception. My POS majors are usually the ones that pull my grade up. Unfortunately this time around, they’re all very unpredictable and challenging. Mahirap talaga. Yung tipong kahit na inaral mo na, minsan hindi mo pa rin talaga maintindihan. Ewan. Pakiramdam ko talaga ang bobo ko minsan.

Every now and then, I find myself at wits end. There is personal pressure there. The anticipation that I’m nearing my last year in college peaks my curiosity about even more what ifs. I can’t help but be engaged with various aspects of my life. and somehow I feel both involved and helpless at the same time. Does that even make sense?

Right. I’ll stop the vagueness now.

Maybe this is just part of growing up and learning from the world, the people around us. Sometimes you think you don’t, but really, you do. That just brings unwanted emotional baggage.

Shush. I still need to go to class.