Nor can I just let go of this place. :( I used to find joy reading my old posts and feeling both shame and triumph over reminiscing through the good/bad/maybe-ugly ol’ days.

Failing to ‘document’ or write about law school here sinks deep and drowns beneath pools of regret. The experience of starting this new venture and going through all the inexplicable emotions of being a first year law student in Ateneo should be THE EXPERIENCE worth rambling about for the world to care even less. Mostly, it is totally regretful in my part that I won’t be able to have anything here for purposes of nostalgia.

And so that will have to change.

My life may have dramatically changed over the past few months, but I leave no room for excuses to stop being able to express myself. Especially now.

In this little bubble, I continue to study, struggle and learn everyday. Perhaps it can be said that the experience can only be fully understood by those who tread the same paths. I feel like a different person everyday and the mere thought of such renders me both excited and troubled. Albeit how corny I may sound: I do feel like I am more in touched with the world and reality as I try to learn more about the law. I grow with it, with the statusquo, with the people around me and with my ambitions and dreams.

My professors always say that knowledge of the law is incredibly powerful. You know it when you start learning, and you believe in it, once you see it at work. The experience might be disheartening to some, but the overwhelming feeling of understanding its purpose is enough to make me realize that it really could be all worth it.

Off to continue studying for our midterms now. It’s going to be a two whole weeks of intense studying. Please pray for all of us!