The time spent to soothe emotional wounds really did do its wonders. Attaining closure in various aspects of my life and myself is priceless. It has allowed me to set free all negativity and make room for so much positivity and optimism. The once tainted realities are given clarity. There is acceptance of truth, and somehow it has stopped burning. It doesn’t hurt anymore. I can finally proclaim myself victorious from this emotional battle. There really is something empowering about that.

Thus, the break has been good so far. Amidst postponed plans, I’m not complaining. It’s refreshing to just think of myself for a change. Shutting myself out from the world entailed no such risks or burdens to anyone. And that felt good. I am able to reconnect with my good friends, strengthen best friend bonds, celebrate promising news, cherish sibling moments, restock my wardrobe, indulge in series downtime, and look forward to good days. It’s safe to say that I’m not clouded with all these repressed feelings. I am able to revel in new possibilities and opportunities knowing what I want and what I can be capable of. And after everything, it feels as if I can handle anything.

Hearing my close friends affirm that truth, while expressing admiration and reminding how much strength I have does make me all feel warm and fuzzy inside. There have been so many times in the past wherein I am left scarred and questioning every minute. I guess I’d like to remind everyone that there really is such a thing as a rainbow after a storm, a silver lining, a chance to have that happily ever after.

I don’t want to get in and over my head, but I want to allow myself this feeling of knowing I shouldn’t be scared, paranoid, or worried.

That’s why I want to be optimistic about the next semester – the last of my junior year. With a really bad T-TH schedule and a SAT class, I am REALLY trying to be OPTIMISTIC still. A six-hour break from 9:00-3:00 is way too long for my own good. I would love to do the unspeakable and go home to Makati after. What will I be doing then? I’m really not looking forward to SAT classes, but it’s definitely an experience. Alam mo yon. Full college experience talaga. Masasanay naman ako eh. I also got Fr. D for Theo 131. Legend prof once again. I am both anxious and excited. Being challenged and continuously pushed always works for me, so we’ll see how that goes. At least, I will be with friends for most of my classes. Things are always bearable with fun and good friends.